One thing that isn’t very fair is Emotion. It has a terrible habit of making you think, feel, or do things that you wouldn’t normally do. And even worse, it has the sneaky way of making you not even care.
I would think that me, being an Otherworldy Being, would at least have a lessened penchant for Emotion. Unfortunately, this isn’t true. I’ve enough for me and three besides. And my capacity for Emotion has seemed to grow exponentially as I get older.
Of course, I do have some talent, and my ability to hide these Moments of Weakness is admirable. But you have those moments sometimes when it’s nearly impossible. And even if you are able to fool the people around you, deep inside you have to admit that you’re actually feeling something, and this can lead to a convoluted mixture of thoughts. First, you have to deal with the Emotion itself. Then you realize that you are experiencing an Emotion, and you become irritated. Then you realize you are feeling irritated out of obligation, and you really don’t care; furthermore, you realize that however uncomfortable the Emotion is, you would rather be experiencing the trigger and feeling the Emotion than nothing at all. This is disconcerting, and you realize that you wished you could wish you weren’t feeling, but since you don’t mind, wishing you weren’t feeling is a little pointless.
Confused yet?
Well, that is okay, because I am a Female, and apparently confusing is a common female attribute to Earthlings.
